A long few weeks, led to an early night to bed. ONLY to wake up too early and not be able to go back to sleep. I thought about blogging about something - then thought better of it, sometimes 4 a.m. blogs are NOT a good idea. I cruised thru my old abandoned myspace and re-read old blogs from there. This one seems to be the most fitting - from then to the present:
Oct 15, 2008
Enough already...
Current mood:blessed
Life has been extremely busy lately. Some people have been very helpful and then some have been standing on the sidelines clucking their tongues about 'whether or not I can handle it all '- 'or always making comments to me about having too much on my plate' or whatever...those are not what I would consider encouraging or supportive statements - in fact - I find myself - dismissing them and their comments from my day...I can't attend to that type of negativity right now.
If anyone truly knows me and supports me as a woman, wife, mom, friend - they would take the time to say to me - 'I am praying for you', 'I thought about you today and wanted to let you know' - 'that even though you are too busy - I understand'.
I learned a long time ago - that I do not lead my life - God does. When I handed my life over to Him and I believe that He loves me - more than anything. More than a fat kid loves cake...
He told me - "it's you and me kid - some things are gonna hurt - but it will be good for you - growing is painful sometimes - that is why they call them 'growing pains' but through it all, all will be done to glorify Jesus - not Berni, get used to it."
Then God promised me a life filled with hope, happiness and wealth.
Not wealth like lots of green money and financial freedom - but wealth in the ownership of viewing a wonderful sunrise - for free; wealth in the abundance of many babies (that turn into wonderful adults) that I get to love daily; wealth in the enjoyment of friendships - some for a lifetime and some for a season.
And then the most awesome gift of all - a hope in life everlasting...I start my day - in God's presence - sometimes it is a nice long conversation - sometimes - it's just a check in - like today's texting.
Today - I rec'd this daily devotional from Greg Laurie - his walk and talk with Jesus - really ministers to me - especially when others are not seeking to be supportive or encouraging.
I want to share pieces of it...maybe then some can understand that I'm not overwhelmed to the point of not being effective as a woman, wife, mom, friend - but I am fully seeking to do His Will - even when the days are long - and nights are short - and conversations with others are even shorter.All I do - is for Him - from raising my babies; to the work I do....
The Search for GodNo one has real understanding; no one is seeking God. — Romans 3:11
Often we hear people say, "I'm on a spiritual journey. I am trying to find the truth. I am trying to find the light. I am trying to find God. I'm searching for God." Yet the Bible says that no one is really searching for God.
You would think that with all the religious belief systems in the world, this could simply not be. Yet God plainly declares in His Word, "If you look for me in earnest, you will find me when you seek me" (Jeremiah 29:13).
Let me be blunt: If you are seeking God, then you will find your way to Jesus Christ. And if you don't find your way to Jesus Christ, then you are not seeking God. You might be playing religious games. You might be dabbling with various belief systems. But the true seeker will find the true God, and those who claim to be true seekers yet reject Jesus Christ are not being honest with God or with themselves.
Religion is humanity's search for God. But Christianity is God's search for humanity.
I have heard people say, "I found the Lord 10 years ago," as though God had been lost. But God wasn't lost; we were. God is seeking to save us, and if we really want to know Him, then we will find Him. People do not come to Jesus Christ because they bristle at the thought of being sinful. They are unwilling to accept God's assessment of them. They are unwilling to acknowledge their guilt. That just bothers them.
Instead, they want to believe they can get to heaven by their own merit, by their goodness, and by their own deeds. But the Bible says that simply isn't so. ~GREG LAURIE~
